You've Prepared Me For The Winter Without You.

Its getting near,
I know you're leaving.
A day after my birthday.
Probably the worse gift ever.

Can I accept it?
Yes. I can.

Can I handle it?
Yes. I can.

Can I face it daily - knowing you're not in Qatar?
No, but I'll try,

I'm scared to even think about it,
That you're leaving.
..and I'll be lonely again,

.......and I know my tears could not stop you from leaving.
Trust me, that's not my goal.

Though you are 5 km away, but i always feel you're close to me.
Accessible. Reachable.

I missed our moment in Al-Khor. When I belong to You, and You belong to me.
Wake up early, prepared breakfast for you, and waiting for you to come back from work was so much fun.

You gave me the feeling and sense of belonging.

Now, that I lost you.
.
.
.
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Knowing that you're leaving, felt almost the same when I'm about to loose mama.
Its the silence moment when I know I cant be in your arms again.

Everything about living in this country, I learnt from you.
Almost all of my 'First Time' living abroad came from you.

You gave me the experience I thought I would never experienced.
You brought me to see the world, the food and the cultures.

You drove me around, so I could remember the roads.
You show me around, so I know where are the malls located.


You taught me Tango, even though I can't catch up.
You show me the fun of horse riding, though its hot.

.........You groomed me to be who I am now, to live in this part of the world.

You made me feel like home, and thus making me strong.
You basically a guide for me. A book filled with knowledge and experience when I needed help.

But, You knew all along, one day we going to be separated...

Basically, You've prepared me for this moment of losing you...


End Of Summer, Qatar
17 October 2018