The Moment I Know I Have Healed And Gonna Be Okay.

When I see you,

I feel angry, I feel betrayed, I feel stupid, 

But, I'm still 'visiting' you sometime..

and looking at your pictures and how happy you are..

Not for my curiosity, but a slap to wake me up..

To remind me how it hurts to remember the good time..

Will it bring back the pain? Of course....

It was exciting, and fun...

But, now its all rubbish and dumb..

I can still remember the words you uttered, that you will not be the one who gonna leave me despite the gap.

Your promise made me weak and 'shiver'...

But, it was all lies...

Perhaps I was just a vessel to keep you occupied.. and now I pay the price.

I should have known better, cuz I used to be one like you..

Hoping for you to be doomed is wrong, Yes, I know...

But, its genuine, not fake..

I will not forget the name...

I shall not mention the 'F' word anymore..

You were not a mistake, but a joke..

I laugh it off and let it go..

I have moved on, its not an easy road...

Now, I want nothing to do with you anymore...

Even If we cross path down the street..

I'll walk on by...

September Summer in Doha

1658hrs

16/09/18