Memoria(S) & Relationship

I have to admit writing a post while having a relationship problem can sometime make me become an emotional person. Well, I guess everybody will turn on their 'emotional button' ON when this 'type' of problem occur. 

and here I am, whining in this entry....

sometime I don't understand why is it so hard to maintain a relationship. 

As for me, being accused for something I did not do has really disturbed me. 

I just wish he wouldn't dumped me for something I did not commit. I know, my past wasn't a Grade A kind of past, but I hope he will not hold on to past.

I guess he is tired now having me in this relationship. I do love him....I hope he can understand that.

Sometime, am thinking...YES, I made some mistake in my past...but please don't haunt me and use them as a weapon against me. I'm wondering, does he really appreciate my effort to change for a better me. 

Again, let me be the person who works hard in this relationship. I don't mind. 

I will still hold on till end......

The Past: Mistake(S)

Mistakes....Everybody made mistakes. I made mistakes. There are some I am proud of, and there are some I am not. Somehow, I'm trying my best to forget those mistakes that I am not proud of.

I have to admit, so many mistakes I have made in my past. In fact, all these mistakes has helped me to be who I am today.

Being in a relationship surrounded with so many mistakes in my past doesn't really help it. It is not even a 'garnishing' on top of a main course. I guess the more your partner knows about your mistakes, the more he will bring up on the table every time there's an argument. And yes, how I wish that my partner will never bring up what ever mistakes that I have made in my past, since I have never bring up any of his.

I guess, he will always see me as a person shadowed with so many mistakes. And my mistakes are his weapon.

Nevertheless, I will always love him, thou I know he can destroy me anytime he wants.

xoxo